As Lent comes to an end...Sweets become a temptation again!!

Being a bigger gal most of my life, I have eaten A LOT  of foods. Generally I didn't care about what I ate because it was so delicious. The calories in the food did not matter to me. I'd eat salty foods like bags of kettle cooked chips or large french fries from McDonald's. I'd eat sweets like they were going out of style! Doughnuts for breakfast, then candy with lunch, and then a tub of ice cream as dessert after dinner. As an adult approaching a time in her life where this weight needs to come off or else.  I've chosen to be on this life style change we call Weight Watchers. They promote all the time not to deprive ourselves because that can cause problems later. This time around I have tried not to deprive myself at all but its hard. I'd see my husband, who can eat whatever the hell he wants and not gain an ounce, eat a huge slice of cake after dinner and of course I couldn't have that! I would fix a little,tiny sliver of cake. Just as tasty right? I would have ice cream when I wanted it and buy a candy bar to split with hubby but I felt like I would "save" points for those empty calories too often. When it came time for me to give something up for Lent it was a no brainer. I've given up soda before when I was hooked on regular mountain dew. It was difficult but I wasn't on a "diet" then so I could fill my craving for something sweet with whatever I wanted. Now if I gave up sweets that was it. It was a little difficult in the beginning because sugar was the thing I turned to when I was happy or sad or bored. Shortly after Lent began though it got easier. I didn't think about the sweets as much anymore, When my 8 year old niece had her birthday on April 10th, the fact that EVERYONE got to eat cake did not bother me in the least. The closer it gets to Easter I've been thinking about what I'm going to eat just because I can. My list seems to be growing fast. I need to stay focused on what my goals are. Maybe I should limit my sweet intake to a number. Like 2 pieces of chocolate or something like that. I don't want to old habits to rush back and ruin how far I've come.

No word from the pt since he went on vacation. I sent him an email telling him I did not do the workouts like he asked me to do while he was gone. I haven't gotten anything back yet. I assume he's just busy getting back to the grind. I would like to hear something though like the plan for the week ahead. I feel like this is going to be an awesome week on the scale. Even though I have not been to the gym I know I will be down. If I have any faith in this life style change I know I will be down. I followed the plan perfectly. I got my recommended fruits/veggies, milks, oils and liquids. I have very high hopes for Saturday morning! :)

Trying to get back on track.

I started last week in high hopes. I was going to meet my trainer twice this week and then 1-2 other workouts by myself. He was going out of town from Thursday-Sunday, so we had to get our sessions in earlier in the week.  I met with my pt on Tuesday. He had me start on the elliptical for a warm up. I did 15 minutes. I seems to be a piece of cake now. After the warm up he told me we were focusing on cardio this week. I then followed him to the stair master. DUN DUN DUN Remember when I used to hate the damn elliptical? Well my new hatred is the DAMN stair master. I don't think I have ever stayed on that freakin thing for longer then 30-45 SECONDS. He had me do 5 minutes. 5 MINUTES!!! After about one I wanted to get off! It's hard to move this 250+ pound body up those stairs. I do not enjoy it in the least! Then we headed to the treadmill. We did 45 second intervals at 3.5 mph followed by 30 second intervals at 2.0 mph. That lasted for about 11 minutes. He said we had one more  thing to do. I figured maybe closing on the elliptical or stationary bike. No! I was wrong! We went back to the stair master!  Can you believe it?  I was like "ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME?" He laugh and said no. I wanted to die... of course I didn't. My lazy ass can't comprehend actually making my body move that hard and not passing out. I guess I can do this.

The plan was to meet again on Wednesday. I forgot I told my dad I would go with him and the family to the UHaul health fair thing. So I had to cancel on Mr.Joe. I felt bad but I promised him I would not let him down on the rest of the workouts this week. I was going to go 2 or 3 more times between Thursday and Sunday. Did I make it to one of those workouts??? NO! Things come up and it is so easy for me to talk myself out of going. My motivation never stays with me. I had ample time to go but I didn't. I feel really bad for not making after I promised my pt I would go. I haven't broken the news to him that I never made it back to the gym since last Tuesday. He's a nice guy so he I don't think he will yell. I do want to get better at this though. I want my motivation to always be there. I wonder if this will get any easier. I have to have faith that it will!

Weigh-in not so good but life is good!

Saturday morning I woke up when my mom called to ask if we were still going to the 8 am weight watchers meeting. I truly couldn't peel myself out of bed yet. I had only gotten 4 hours of sleep up to that point. So I slept for another hour and we went to the 9:15 am meeting instead. I weighed in and it wasn't great. I was hoping for something positive on the scale but I was up 1.6 pounds. I was very upset. All this hard work for what? I know why I was up... too much alcohol the night before plus lack of sleep didn't help! But I put time in at the gym with my pt and I ate the way I was supposed to I should not have been up that much! UGH! I was frustrated. Then I thought about it. At weight watchers they say whether or not I have a good week should not only depend on the scale.  I pushed my body this more then I have in the past. I should be proud of that! It is what it is. If I keep pushing my body I know I will be down next week. Even if I'm not though I will be proud of my NON scale accomplishments!

Last night I went meet my trainer to do my pull workout. We worked out back, biceps, and some other muscle all at the same time. I started off on the damn elliptical and did 16.5 minutes while my pt Mr. Joe finished up his workout. He came to get me and we went to the treadmill for a 13 minute fast walk. I told him I needed to put more time in on the treadmill because I will be participating in my very first 5k on May 22nd. I'm kind of nervous because it seems like a lot. Truthfully its only 3.1 miles and I believe I can do it! Then we headed downstairs to work on machines. The pull workout didn't take very long, though I did feel the workout right away. This morning I felt great! I know this is all going to pay off in the end! I just KNOW IT!!

Is this worth it?

Yesterday I had another workout with my trainer . It wasn't very long but it must have been effective because I can definitely feel it! It was so difficult to move today. Ive got soreness in my legs (calfs, hamstrings, and whatever the top muscle is called) and I've got soreness in my chest, shoulders, and triceps from our push workout last night! I guess deep down inside I know it's worth it but I am so sore I could barely walk around the mall today with the kids. When Ben looks at me and says "I want up" I've got to pick him up! He's too darn cute not to. And Hailey says "I have a secret come here", I'm sure as hell not bending down with as sore as my thighs are. So I have to pick her up too. Even though it hurts. All I really wanted today is sleep. But I've got an 8 hour shift then family dinner at the in-laws then a party with hubby's friends. No time to rest. Tomorrow I know I will have some accomplishment on the scale and that will help to see this all coming together. I will also have a 3rd session with the pt Mr. Joe in 4 days. Wahhhhhh!!!

So sore!

I had a great day yesterday! Wednesdays are my new off day during the week. It used to be on Thursdays so its something I've got to get used to. I had lunch with my sister and brother. We went to the Stadium on East Piedmont and it was ehhh. I don't know why we go back there because its never that good! Then after my sister and I went shopping. We met up with my parents, husband, and baby niece to go walking at the park. It was a blast! The trails are fun and feel like your really hiking. The track is nice as well. I used my stop watch on  my phone to keep up with the time and we walked for 47 minutes!! Yeah! It was fun!

Everyone headed home and I went to the gym to meet Mr. Joe my personal trainer. We haven't met up in a while. It was about 7 p.m. and we started on the treadmill. (boo) He asked how I've been doing and of course I told him about my weight loss as of yet! (I just realized I never posted about this. I hit 20 lbs down this past Saturday. Which was the end of my mothers and my  first 90 day challenge. I won!!) He told me he want to try and push our sessions to 3 times a week so we can help this weight loss along! We did legs! I don't mind doing legs for the most part because I normally can do the exercises easier. I obviously have a lot of muscle in my legs I mean I have to to be able to carry around my fat ass. So we some stuff with just the weight of my body and some on the machines with weights. It was a good session. I definitely felt it! I was dreading this morning and being sore. I am very sore though its nothing I can't handle. If I move around enough today with the kids I should be alright! I am meeting Joe tonight around the same time for another session! I am assuming its going to focus on upper body because my legs are dead.

Spoke with my trainer today!

Today was my second anniversary with my wonderful husband! So I truly did not feel like going to the gym. But I did speak with my pt and Mr. Joe wants to meet with me 3 times this week! Wednesday, Thursday, and  Saturday! AHHH! I might die! Pray for me that I make it out alive!

Failed...

I did not make it to the gym yesterday! BOO! I can't make it today because a crazy day at work and plans family dinner afterwards. (Which we are not hosting now, My husbands "sister" decided she was going to do it this week instead) I still could make it today after family dinner. If I leave by 9 I can make it to the gym before they close at 10P.M. but let's face it. I'm way too lazy to make it to the gym that late in the evening. *sigh* Tomorrow starts a new week. Pray for better outcome!!