I am not sure if my pt is still on board. He just switched jobs and is very busy so I don't blame him for not being available. He doesn't do the training thing full time. I need to some how get my act together. With or without someone there. This journey is for me and me alone. I want to get healthy for my future, right? I don't know how to stay focused. I keep losing my motivation. What do I do? I need prayers. I need guidance from the Lord!
On top of my trainer not being available I am most likely losing my job next week. My employer is not getting paid at her current job and that means they don't have the funds to pay me. I am VERY upset to be leaving my kids. I am not sure what I'll be doing after next week. If I can't find work soon enough I will have to cancel my gym membership. I hope to GOD it doesn't come to that!! On the other hand I don't want to actively look for a full time job if my employer finds work soon. If I take a job I may not be available to come back to this family. If everything happens for a reason...why did this happen to me? I can't answer that right now and it scares me. I know this wasn't about the exercise thing but I needed to get it off my chest!
Anyone have any words of wisdom that could help??
Friday, June 17, 2011
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Needs someone to kick my butt!
I realized that even though I made it to the gym today for the first time since my surgery. I did not do everything to the best of my ability. I felt I fell short today. I was disappointed in myself! I went ONLY 20 minutes on the damn elliptical and couldn't go anymore! GRR I hate how hard this is to stay motivated! I believe I need my pt there to help kick my ass and keep on track. But he's busy so I should be able to keep myself on track! It's tough! How do I make this easier?! Can I take a pill that makes it all better? GOD please give my strength! I need to get healthy for my future!
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