I started last week in high hopes. I was going to meet my trainer twice this week and then 1-2 other workouts by myself. He was going out of town from Thursday-Sunday, so we had to get our sessions in earlier in the week. I met with my pt on Tuesday. He had me start on the elliptical for a warm up. I did 15 minutes. I seems to be a piece of cake now. After the warm up he told me we were focusing on cardio this week. I then followed him to the stair master. DUN DUN DUN Remember when I used to hate the damn elliptical? Well my new hatred is the DAMN stair master. I don't think I have ever stayed on that freakin thing for longer then 30-45 SECONDS. He had me do 5 minutes. 5 MINUTES!!! After about one I wanted to get off! It's hard to move this 250+ pound body up those stairs. I do not enjoy it in the least! Then we headed to the treadmill. We did 45 second intervals at 3.5 mph followed by 30 second intervals at 2.0 mph. That lasted for about 11 minutes. He said we had one more thing to do. I figured maybe closing on the elliptical or stationary bike. No! I was wrong! We went back to the stair master! Can you believe it? I was like "ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME?" He laugh and said no. I wanted to die... of course I didn't. My lazy ass can't comprehend actually making my body move that hard and not passing out. I guess I can do this.
The plan was to meet again on Wednesday. I forgot I told my dad I would go with him and the family to the UHaul health fair thing. So I had to cancel on Mr.Joe. I felt bad but I promised him I would not let him down on the rest of the workouts this week. I was going to go 2 or 3 more times between Thursday and Sunday. Did I make it to one of those workouts??? NO! Things come up and it is so easy for me to talk myself out of going. My motivation never stays with me. I had ample time to go but I didn't. I feel really bad for not making after I promised my pt I would go. I haven't broken the news to him that I never made it back to the gym since last Tuesday. He's a nice guy so he I don't think he will yell. I do want to get better at this though. I want my motivation to always be there. I wonder if this will get any easier. I have to have faith that it will!
Keep your head up Angel! Just remember how good you feel when you complete something you didn't think you could ever do and let that drive you to keep going! Remind yourself why your doing this and don't give up! Im sure it sucks and its some serious hard work but just think how proud you will be of yourself when you meet your goals! You can do it!!! :) And thank you for sharing!!
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