NEEDS to get back to the gym!

While I wasn't eating very much last week I ended up losing 4 pounds! Which put me at my 10%! Getting back to the grove of eating the right things was harder then I thought. For a week and a half I could eat whatever I wanted (if I felt like eating at all). I didn't really count points. Now I have to focus and eating the right thing and counting everything. And all I want to do is eat badly! It was hard for me to make the right choices this week. I feel like I am probably going to gain at least 2 pounds back if not more! I hate this feeling!!!!

I also haven't felt like getting to the gym. I'm still in pain and want to just be lazy! I need to call my trainer and go ahead and plan something this weekend or something so I can get back on it! This has been one of the toughest 2 weeks since I started again! I need some encouragement!!!

Nothing to report fitness wise.

I am still recovering from my surgery. So I have not made it back to the gym yet. Apparently day 10 is the turning point. Day 10 will this Saturday. So hopefully I will start to feel a difference soon! I know I'm getting better everyday but my throat still kills me! I had to go back to work because I need the money. I went for my first post op yesterday and the nurse practitioner was surprised I had went back to work already. Most adults she said don't go back until at least a week after surgery. I couldn't afford that. I also was worried about my employer finding a replacement for me. I didn't want to leave her high and dry! I am excited to weigh in on Saturday because like I said in my last post the only good thing about this surgery is the weight loss. This week I have consumed very little food wise. I finally ate real food on Tuesday. I had chicken noodle soup in the blender!! Haha! Then last night I had a weight watchers smart ones frozen dinner. It was the pasta dish with vodka cream sauce. My husband blended that for me as well! It was yummy and only 8 points plus! I would definitely recommend that one non blended of course! I hope that on Saturday I not only drop a good amount of weight but also start to feel better!

The ONLY good thing about getting your tonsils out...

is the weight loss! Lol I haven't felt much like eating in the past 3 days since having my tonsils removed on Thursday  From last Saturday until Wednesday I ate on plan and followed weight watchers. So I want to see how I did this week. I lost another 1.6 lbs! That's a total of 25.6!! and I got my first 25 pound little weight thingy to go on my 10% key chain when I finally lose 29 lbs which should be soon! I hope the weight stays off though, and I don't pig out when I get back to eating real food! Motivation is key!

Maybe chocolate won't be my enemy anymore...

The weekend of Easter I weighed in on Saturday and I was presently surprised! I was down another 2 pounds! My total loss is 23.2 since January 2nd. Easter was Sunday and it was a blast! We did Easter morning with my baby niece and the Easter Bunny brought me some cadbury eggs and a chocolate cover rice crispy treat. I was worried about my intake of sweets now that Lent is over.  We then went to see family in Locust Grove, Ga and had lunch there. On the Menu was 2 kinds of ham, 2 potato salads, baked bean, sliced bakery bread for sandwiches, pasta salad, chips, and other miscellaneous things. For dessert there was a fluffy fruit salad with whipped cream and 2 huge soup kettles full of cookies! I indulged in the a few small cookies and that was it there. We drove home about 45 minutes. Then headed over to my in laws for Easter dinner. On the menu there 2 more kinds of ham, baked beans, macaroni salad, potato salad, and yeast rolls. I ate all day. I went over 30 points in one day. I felt bad but then I thought that's what the extra weekly points are for right? I continued on with my week and sweets haven't really gotten to me. I have been "allowed" to eat sweets for a couple weeks now and I've indulged but not overly so. I hope this feeling of not needing to over indulge sticks with me for a while!

This past week I worked out with my trainer twice. Once on Thursday once late in the evening on Friday! They were great workouts. Thursday we did push muscles and some ab exercises. Focus was on shoulders, so we used the bar to do some standing push ups. We also did some stuff on the floor for my abs.  I felt them right away. Then Friday at 9 p.m. I did circuit training. Man my personal trainer really kick my butt!! I did six different exercises at 1 minute each 4 times.  It was hard to get through but I did it!!
This past weekend I weighed in and I was down .8 of a pound. Which brings my total to 24 pounds! I am so proud my progress. If I keep going at this rate I will be close to my loss goal of 100 pounds by then end of the year! :)

As Lent comes to an end...Sweets become a temptation again!!

Being a bigger gal most of my life, I have eaten A LOT  of foods. Generally I didn't care about what I ate because it was so delicious. The calories in the food did not matter to me. I'd eat salty foods like bags of kettle cooked chips or large french fries from McDonald's. I'd eat sweets like they were going out of style! Doughnuts for breakfast, then candy with lunch, and then a tub of ice cream as dessert after dinner. As an adult approaching a time in her life where this weight needs to come off or else.  I've chosen to be on this life style change we call Weight Watchers. They promote all the time not to deprive ourselves because that can cause problems later. This time around I have tried not to deprive myself at all but its hard. I'd see my husband, who can eat whatever the hell he wants and not gain an ounce, eat a huge slice of cake after dinner and of course I couldn't have that! I would fix a little,tiny sliver of cake. Just as tasty right? I would have ice cream when I wanted it and buy a candy bar to split with hubby but I felt like I would "save" points for those empty calories too often. When it came time for me to give something up for Lent it was a no brainer. I've given up soda before when I was hooked on regular mountain dew. It was difficult but I wasn't on a "diet" then so I could fill my craving for something sweet with whatever I wanted. Now if I gave up sweets that was it. It was a little difficult in the beginning because sugar was the thing I turned to when I was happy or sad or bored. Shortly after Lent began though it got easier. I didn't think about the sweets as much anymore, When my 8 year old niece had her birthday on April 10th, the fact that EVERYONE got to eat cake did not bother me in the least. The closer it gets to Easter I've been thinking about what I'm going to eat just because I can. My list seems to be growing fast. I need to stay focused on what my goals are. Maybe I should limit my sweet intake to a number. Like 2 pieces of chocolate or something like that. I don't want to old habits to rush back and ruin how far I've come.

No word from the pt since he went on vacation. I sent him an email telling him I did not do the workouts like he asked me to do while he was gone. I haven't gotten anything back yet. I assume he's just busy getting back to the grind. I would like to hear something though like the plan for the week ahead. I feel like this is going to be an awesome week on the scale. Even though I have not been to the gym I know I will be down. If I have any faith in this life style change I know I will be down. I followed the plan perfectly. I got my recommended fruits/veggies, milks, oils and liquids. I have very high hopes for Saturday morning! :)

Trying to get back on track.

I started last week in high hopes. I was going to meet my trainer twice this week and then 1-2 other workouts by myself. He was going out of town from Thursday-Sunday, so we had to get our sessions in earlier in the week.  I met with my pt on Tuesday. He had me start on the elliptical for a warm up. I did 15 minutes. I seems to be a piece of cake now. After the warm up he told me we were focusing on cardio this week. I then followed him to the stair master. DUN DUN DUN Remember when I used to hate the damn elliptical? Well my new hatred is the DAMN stair master. I don't think I have ever stayed on that freakin thing for longer then 30-45 SECONDS. He had me do 5 minutes. 5 MINUTES!!! After about one I wanted to get off! It's hard to move this 250+ pound body up those stairs. I do not enjoy it in the least! Then we headed to the treadmill. We did 45 second intervals at 3.5 mph followed by 30 second intervals at 2.0 mph. That lasted for about 11 minutes. He said we had one more  thing to do. I figured maybe closing on the elliptical or stationary bike. No! I was wrong! We went back to the stair master!  Can you believe it?  I was like "ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME?" He laugh and said no. I wanted to die... of course I didn't. My lazy ass can't comprehend actually making my body move that hard and not passing out. I guess I can do this.

The plan was to meet again on Wednesday. I forgot I told my dad I would go with him and the family to the UHaul health fair thing. So I had to cancel on Mr.Joe. I felt bad but I promised him I would not let him down on the rest of the workouts this week. I was going to go 2 or 3 more times between Thursday and Sunday. Did I make it to one of those workouts??? NO! Things come up and it is so easy for me to talk myself out of going. My motivation never stays with me. I had ample time to go but I didn't. I feel really bad for not making after I promised my pt I would go. I haven't broken the news to him that I never made it back to the gym since last Tuesday. He's a nice guy so he I don't think he will yell. I do want to get better at this though. I want my motivation to always be there. I wonder if this will get any easier. I have to have faith that it will!

Weigh-in not so good but life is good!

Saturday morning I woke up when my mom called to ask if we were still going to the 8 am weight watchers meeting. I truly couldn't peel myself out of bed yet. I had only gotten 4 hours of sleep up to that point. So I slept for another hour and we went to the 9:15 am meeting instead. I weighed in and it wasn't great. I was hoping for something positive on the scale but I was up 1.6 pounds. I was very upset. All this hard work for what? I know why I was up... too much alcohol the night before plus lack of sleep didn't help! But I put time in at the gym with my pt and I ate the way I was supposed to I should not have been up that much! UGH! I was frustrated. Then I thought about it. At weight watchers they say whether or not I have a good week should not only depend on the scale.  I pushed my body this more then I have in the past. I should be proud of that! It is what it is. If I keep pushing my body I know I will be down next week. Even if I'm not though I will be proud of my NON scale accomplishments!

Last night I went meet my trainer to do my pull workout. We worked out back, biceps, and some other muscle all at the same time. I started off on the damn elliptical and did 16.5 minutes while my pt Mr. Joe finished up his workout. He came to get me and we went to the treadmill for a 13 minute fast walk. I told him I needed to put more time in on the treadmill because I will be participating in my very first 5k on May 22nd. I'm kind of nervous because it seems like a lot. Truthfully its only 3.1 miles and I believe I can do it! Then we headed downstairs to work on machines. The pull workout didn't take very long, though I did feel the workout right away. This morning I felt great! I know this is all going to pay off in the end! I just KNOW IT!!

Is this worth it?

Yesterday I had another workout with my trainer . It wasn't very long but it must have been effective because I can definitely feel it! It was so difficult to move today. Ive got soreness in my legs (calfs, hamstrings, and whatever the top muscle is called) and I've got soreness in my chest, shoulders, and triceps from our push workout last night! I guess deep down inside I know it's worth it but I am so sore I could barely walk around the mall today with the kids. When Ben looks at me and says "I want up" I've got to pick him up! He's too darn cute not to. And Hailey says "I have a secret come here", I'm sure as hell not bending down with as sore as my thighs are. So I have to pick her up too. Even though it hurts. All I really wanted today is sleep. But I've got an 8 hour shift then family dinner at the in-laws then a party with hubby's friends. No time to rest. Tomorrow I know I will have some accomplishment on the scale and that will help to see this all coming together. I will also have a 3rd session with the pt Mr. Joe in 4 days. Wahhhhhh!!!

So sore!

I had a great day yesterday! Wednesdays are my new off day during the week. It used to be on Thursdays so its something I've got to get used to. I had lunch with my sister and brother. We went to the Stadium on East Piedmont and it was ehhh. I don't know why we go back there because its never that good! Then after my sister and I went shopping. We met up with my parents, husband, and baby niece to go walking at the park. It was a blast! The trails are fun and feel like your really hiking. The track is nice as well. I used my stop watch on  my phone to keep up with the time and we walked for 47 minutes!! Yeah! It was fun!

Everyone headed home and I went to the gym to meet Mr. Joe my personal trainer. We haven't met up in a while. It was about 7 p.m. and we started on the treadmill. (boo) He asked how I've been doing and of course I told him about my weight loss as of yet! (I just realized I never posted about this. I hit 20 lbs down this past Saturday. Which was the end of my mothers and my  first 90 day challenge. I won!!) He told me he want to try and push our sessions to 3 times a week so we can help this weight loss along! We did legs! I don't mind doing legs for the most part because I normally can do the exercises easier. I obviously have a lot of muscle in my legs I mean I have to to be able to carry around my fat ass. So we some stuff with just the weight of my body and some on the machines with weights. It was a good session. I definitely felt it! I was dreading this morning and being sore. I am very sore though its nothing I can't handle. If I move around enough today with the kids I should be alright! I am meeting Joe tonight around the same time for another session! I am assuming its going to focus on upper body because my legs are dead.